As a new breathwork facilitator, I am struggling to find my place. I watch all my classmates and experienced teachers and am just blown away by how talented, expansive and inspiring everyone is. Not that I don’t believe I hold these qualities myself, it is more of being curious as to where I will fit alongside them. Our teacher Ben encourages us to be ourselves and to have our own flare when facilitating a breathwork session, but what is mine?
I want to share my past experiences and my vulnerability, but I don’t want to make it about me. I want to be relatable but not triggering. I want to have open and honest conversations, but I may struggle with people’s judgements and opinions of each other and myself. I want to be a space for creativity and expression, but what if I can’t find the inspiration when needed. I want to teach and share my knowledge, but what if it is not received well. What if I can’t financially make this work. These are all the fears that go through my head daily and all the reasons to be scared and not teach, but spite all of those fears I am going to do it anyway.
I guess what I have realized on my journey is…. I don’t know. I don’t know exactly what facilitator I will be. Will I teach amazing retreat classes all over the world, like I envision, maybe. Will I specialize in trauma, possibly. Will I teach breathwork classes at the local MMA facility? Could be. Will I open a studio of my own where people can build a community and people to come together, most likely. I think I want it all.
I want to do all those things, and I can. I think the most important thing I have realized is that I need to not worry about that and just let it naturally unfold. I don’t need to control every aspect of my path. I believe the Universe, God, Spirt, Collective Consciousness whatever you want to call it, will lead me where I need to go. Authenticity and faith have got me this far. I have faith that I will know what to do when I need to. I will listen to my intuition and have faith in myself, my mentors and my tools to do the work. So, I guess my place is exactly where I am at this moment. My place is here and now.